NICOLE Kidman has revealed in an intimate interview on US TV her desire to be "barefoot and pregnant", and own a farm and a goat.
The Australian actress spoke guardedly about her marriage to Keith Urban, his struggles in rehab, her fear about death, her sexual repression and her hope to own a goat.
Kidman's appearance came on a new show produced by talk show queen Oprah Winfrey who pairs up famous best friends to interview each other.
Kidman was supposed to interview Russell Crowe, but ended up being interviewed by him, and in another segment Julia Roberts interviewed George Clooney.
With no question apparently off limits, including Urban's three-month stint in rehab, Crowe and Kidman peppered each other with personal questions.
"So, how is Keith doing?'' Crowe asked. "Keith is doing very well,'' Kidman replied.”We've been through a lot.''
When Crowe began to ask another question, Kidman stopped him. "Let me finish that because that will be seen as a superficial answer and I don't like to give those.''
Kidman continued to then give a very superficial answer, "We've dug really deep. Three months into our marriage we had to dig really deep and that's what we are doing and we are in the process of doing that.'' How about saying that you actually love him and really want to try to work things out. Why not say, Keith is the love of my life and we are so very happy and determined to have a successful marriage. How about just, “I love my husband deeply”?
Crowe also questioned Kidman about her plans to have a child. "Am I going to have a baby? I hope so,'' Kidman said.
Crowe then asked whether Kidman would have the child naturally, or adopt. "Are you going to carry a baby?'' Crowe asked. Kidman, 39, looked extremely uncomfortable, but replied: "Yes, I would hope so.'' "
Well, I just want to see you walk around barefoot and pregnant,'' Crowe said."I'd like to see that too,'' Kidman smiled. What about the two kids you adopted, Nicole? How often do you see them? Are you a good mother to them?
Crowe also asked Kidman if she liked to love or be loved? "I suppose that's been my big struggle because I love to love and I think the most difficult thing is allowing yourself to be loved,'' Kidman answered. "So, receiving the love and feeling like you deserve it is a pretty big struggle and I suppose that's what I've learned just recently is to allow myself to be loved.'' Did your father give you that line, Nicole?
Kidman also delved into Crowe's life, asking him if he was ticklish. "Extremely ticklish,'' Crowe said.
Kidman then said: "You know what they say about people who are ticklish?''
"They laugh a lot?'' Crowe said.
Kidman replied: "No, because I'm very ticklish too. Sexually repressed. Let's move off that.'' Well then why did you bring it up if you didn’t want to talk about it, Nicole? How do you think that makes your new husband feel?
Kidman also told how a near fatal accident in a helicopter flying back from Mexico had changed her outlook on life.
"It was in that moment when we were all going 'This could be the moment when we die' and I always thought the moments before I died I'd be terrified, but I went into this state of calmness,'' Kidman said. "That's when I realized my conscience was clear and that I had managed to purge myself of all the things that had weighed so heavy on me and that's when I realized I wasn't so afraid of death.'' Is your conscience clear about what you have done to your husband in the short time you have known him? Is your conscience clear that you are making your husband put his career on hold so that he fetch you water and ice cream on your movie set when he should be touring and making music, because that is what makes him happy? Is your conscience clear about marrying another man when you are still in love with your first husband and even admitted that a few months ago?
The actress also revealed how she was planning to buy a farm with Urban in Nashville. "We are going to get a farm and I really want a goat,'' Kidman said. Who are you kidding? Do you think people actually believe that? You haven’t even set foot in Nashville in months.
"A goat?'' a surprised Crowe said.
"I just kind of have this thing where I'd like to have a goat,'' Kidman continued, adding that she would use it to make cheese.
"I guarantee you; you'll need more than one goat,'' Crowe laughed.